Saturday, February 27, 2010

Pour Me A Heavy Dose Of Atmosphere

work off ... check

clothes washed ... check

airline ticket purchased ...check

guest bedroom cleaned ...check

golden retriever hair vacuumed ... check

checks deposited ... check

polaroid film purchased ...check

now all i have to do is ...


San Francisco here I come. Spring Break needs to get here.


My closet is in the process of getting remodeled which forced me to clean and reorganize my room. I came across this quote that my cousin's grandmother Baba said while recovering from a massive stroke.

"Many of us lose confidence in prayer because we do not recognize the answer. We ask for strength and God gives us difficulties which make us strong. We pray for wisdom and God sends us problems, the solution of which develops wisdom. We pray for prosperity and God gives us a brain and brawn to work. We plead for courage and God gives us family to help overcome struggles. We ask for success and God gives us opportunities.

-Nevena Cranney

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Heart of Gold

A cute little lady came in to my work today and was talking to me about life.

She asked about my future and such and I made small talk not really opening up to this complete stranger.

After purchasing a gold necklace and a matching ring she looks up and smiles and says, "Boy, with your charm, I bet your parent's brag about you every hour of the day."

walks off.
left me speechless.
but for some reason I couldn't wipe the smile off my face.

I could have flown to the moon without using a firebolt.

Lonely Boy

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Like A Rolling Stone

I want to be gazing in to your eyes.

I want to see that perfect smile when you realize that I was right and you were wrong.

I want to drive down the streets with the windows down while our hands converse with each other.

I want to stroll down the city while everyone admires your true beauty.

I want to hear your loud, quirky laugh when I tell one of my uncomical jokes.

I want to see your nose crinkle when you realize I'm admiring you.

I want to lie in your bed made of clouds for hours while watching countless movies.

I want to go out with you just so all my friends can be jealous.

I want to go to the gym with you just to hear that voice you do when you complain.

I want to wipe those tears when you have a bad day even though it kills me to see them form.

I want to feel your arms around me when I have no words to say.

I want to listen to your music even when I lie and tell you I hate it.

I want to go to the park and swing for hours on end.

I want to go back to simplicity.

I guess what I want is you.

Lonely Boy

I've Got 99 Problems And They Are All Bitches

As I lay in bed thinking about my life, all I can say is that I want out of here. Salt Lake has given me all it can offer and I don't see myself living here for very much longer.

girls are lame

It seems as if every girl I think about liking ends up stabbing me in the back and kicking me in the jugular. They all want a return missionary and that aint me. I feel like I don't have anything to offer them yet I always hear how great of a guy I am.

friends are sketchy

It seems as if every friend I have ever had has disrespected me in some way and leaves me in the dust. I have very few real friends and I don't think there are any more for me here in Salt Lake. I have reached my limit. I'm sick of being on some waiting list to hear back from "friends." I am sick of everyone knowing each other. Everyone is connected in some way and it pisses me off. I need out.

school is lame

It seems as if no matter how hard I study and achieve good grades, I don't know what I really want to do. I am currently in the Sign Language Interpreting Program, but what happens after that? I have had my mind set on the Medical field, but is that what I really want to do? In ten years, I will just be starting my career with thousands of dollars of debt. Life is confusing. Nobody comes out of it alive.

utah sucks

It seems as if Utah can offer me nothing. I want warm, sunny air with the smell of salt lingering in my nostrils. I want a big city bustling around with the sounds of laughter, sirens, and music. I want to be surrounded with people who don't place judgement's on others just for their appearances. I want to live in a spacious studio apartment with art hanging from the walls. I want to be able to walk around the city with my camera in my hand making art out of people's lives. If love exists, I want to find it. I want to find a lover. I want a lover who will make me handmade cards and walk in the park with me while laughing about novels, life, and people. I want to wake up next to that person with a smile on my face knowing that happiness does truly exist. I want to walk to work with a coffee in one hand and my blackberry in the other with not a single worry. What I want is change. I am in a love/hate relationship with change. It is inevitable, yet the world attempts to force so much change on all of us every day. I want to move. Get out. Experience life outside of this Utah Bubble. Yes, I am twenty years old and single. Judge me. I want to dive in to culture and life and experience the wonders of the world. I want to wake up in the morning feeling like P. Diddy. I guess that is all.

Lonely Boy