People have asked my why I chose to go to China to teach English and I never really had a strong answer. I kind of meandered my thoughts and told them I did it because I wanted to. This is the truth. I do want to do this with every fiber in my being. But why China? I have never been absolutely fond of Asians. Today I came to my conclusion. All of my best friends have left me to serve their church in a two-year mission. I never ruled that option out, but life has never been easy for me. I never plan out my future. I just take it one step at a time. The thought of a mission kind of freaked me out. So I found China Horizons and it felt right. My own mission. Serving the people in China for four months while receiving nothing in return. But will I receive nothing? Of course I will purchase hundreds of little souvenirs along the way that are super cheap and may not last too long, but is that it? I have a belief that I will grow beyond my years and become a man. I need to grow up. I may not always want to, but I need to. I need to find my calling in life. My niche. I am sure that four months living in a foreign country will help me guide a path in what I want to do with my life. The people in China are waiting for me, and I am waiting for them. You may think that four months, isn't that long, but I think it is just long enough. I am hoping that while in China I will learn to love myself. I hope to love everything about me. For when I love myself, I then can love another. I am not a firm believer in love. I may think it is wildy fanciful and often unrealistic. But that is the joy of life. Finding things out for your self. Maybe getting hurt in the end, but atleast you can learn something and take it with you in other relationships.
As you can see, I have a lot going on in my head while I sit on my bed and stare at my black suitcase half filled with random belongings. Tomorrow, I don't have to wake up at 7 am to go to work. I am no longer employed for the rest of the year. See you in January people. You will hopefully be hearing from me soon. On the other side of the world. Sorry for the random thoughts that are scattered about but these are my thoughts as I think them. No proof-reading necessary. Until next time . . .
SALT LAKE LONELY BOY